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Filling In The Silence EP

by Natiform

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1.
I swear I'll quit someday I swear I'll quit someday don't wake me, I'm sleeping in the craving is creeping in and curled up in the corner that they caught her weeping in banned from the places the wind was once taking us nothing is chasing us why are we running and why do you care about my whereabouts and how I got there when even I forgot there was ever a reason to freeze in the night air I swear, I'll quit someday I swear I'll quit someday I swear I'll quit someday I swear I'll quit someday
2.
Buried 02:54
singing to the ground, muzzled by a monotone singing to the ground making space, filling in the silence holding my hand, fingers interlaced drawing a map to a forbidden place losing track of time, but not what it takes tonight I feel it taking you away singing to the ground singing to the ground I'm too afraid to let you know what I found buried in the earth below I'll give you space, I'll give you way too much I'll give myself hell for craving your touch
3.
flawed here, known never I'm adored here for something that never resembled me leave my grief or bring it along and make it a group activity I know exactly what I'm doing put my hand on my own heartbeat I am here for you, my darling what's the point in asking for someone else's help I'll just end up sabotaging (just end up sabotaging myself) (said you wanted to get better, you said it you said you wanna get better, get better) and now it's uphill forever, no turning back until I'm falling to the ground (said you wanna get better, you said it you said you wanna get better, get better) I know but it's uphill forever now too late to turn back, I just want to break down carefree's just another word for apathy I worry sometimes that worry's all that keeps me alive nah, it's not that bad, it's just not getting better and happy memories never defined our time together so sorry but my hands are tied and I'm sure you wouldn't call me otherwise it seemed like fun when I was younger full speed, I'd run, always downhill no resistance, used to thrill me knowing one misstep could kill me so addicted to the feeling of almost falling all the way back down (said you wanted to get better, you said it you said you wanna get better, get better) and now it's uphill forever, no turning back until I'm falling to the ground (said you wanna get better, you said it you said you wanna get better, get better) I know but it's uphill forever now too late to turn back, I just want to break down and I'd like to help you out but my hands are tied, just the way I like my hands are tied, and I'm sure you wouldn't call me otherwise I'm sure you wouldn't call me otherwise I'm sure you wouldn't call me otherwise hard to keep your head up when falling all the way back down seems inevitable hard to keep your head up it's falling all the way back down keep your head up falling all the way back down falling all the way back down will it ever stop falling all the way back down forever
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Paper Boats 04:13
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someday I'd like to talk as though you know where I am coming from someday I'd like to talk as though you know where I am coming from I think I found what I'm looking for in that conversation you came up in heard a sound coming from next door in the room I grew up and gave up in heavy drinking never gives what it takes I'm finding ways to get wasted making my heart break so sick of the same old drug can't even stomach the taste of what I'm bottling up hard liquor didn't do the trick I don't think it's getting any better with age, still I'm wasted off the way my heart aches halfway home when I am driving alone and I don't wanna be alive anymore who am I to feel okay watching you decay and reach out to hold me as I run away wonder as I wake, when did this place get so small but if these walls could talk they'd have nothing to say someday I'd like to talk as though you know where I am coming from someday I'd like to walk as though I know what I am running from is dead and gone

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for Grandma.

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released December 18, 2020

written, produced, mixed & mastered by Natalie Reid

album cover photography by Elle Vanderdeyl
illustrations & design by Natalie Reid

a very special thanks to: Byron, Dan, Emma, Grant, Harry, Jenna & Nathan for letting me record probably about an hour's worth of conversations (and for the 3 seconds of it that ended up in track 1)

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